By June

Can I really lose 24.4lbs in a little more than a month…?

and i needed to find something that wouldn’t fall off of me for work today

and i finally found the old work pants i bought last year that were so super tight on me (i thought i could be a fat girl in skinny jeans haha) and thought, hey they might fit me now

they were loose. they’re a size 11. i basically cried. 

so i went to walmart tonight after work for a new pair of pants and thought hey an 8 will definitely fit, but i found an awesome pair in size 6… i was hopeful even if i knew i’d just feel fatter for trying them on. 

every size six i put on fit perfectly or were loose on my hips and thighs. 

this is a huge deal for me. i haven’t been under a size 8 since 8th grade. that’s seven years ago. 

i picked out every size six style i liked and splurged on new spring jeans and shorts. i know (hope) i’ll be even smaller by summer, but this is a victory i never thought i’d have. 

5 sizes to go. :) 

After yesterday’s HAMBURGER (really. REALLY. I HAD A HAMBURGER. Mom asked what I was hungry for and my flu made me hungry for ONE THING and it had to be Mcdonald’s?!?!?!) today it’s time for some serious smack down. 

Breakfast ► 2 mini kosher dill pickles, less than 10 calories. 

Lunch ► (At work,) Iced Chai, Soy Milk, Sugar Free Syrup (Not counting liquids lately, or I’d kill myself.) 

Snack ► Maybe some V8? 

Dinner ► Nothing. I get home at 9 so mom won’t notice. “I ate at work.” 

It’s not enough, of course it’s not enough, it won’t be enough until I see those double zeros, but back in January I never would have thought I’d make it this far. 

I set back a lot wasting March, I could have been this weight back then, but I can’t turn back time. 

27.8 pounds. 56 days. 

I’ll be 100lbs by June. I have to be.